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Black Moon Lilith in Pisces in the 4th House

by Johanna Hedva

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1.
O Death 10:43
Oh death Oh death The children pray And the preachers preach Time and mercy Are out of reach Oh death Oh death Eat the flesh From the frame Dirt and words Have the only claim Leave the body Leave it cold Death has come To take… Oh death Oh death
2.
Wash 07:26
Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash Wash
3.
Family 03:50
I wanna kill My whole family I wanna spill Their blood, their blood In the dirt It’s what, it’s what They deserve I’m gonna do it With my bare hands I’m gonna do it With my bare hands Just like they taught me to I’m gonna kill My whole family I’m gonna spill Their blood, their blood In the dirt Before, before They get me first I’m gonna do it With my bare hands I’m gonna do it With my bare hands Just like they taught me to
4.
Take this one It’ll help your bones Take this one It’ll help your blood Take this one It’ll help with the pain Take this one It’ll help you run Can I take one that will help me carry The whole thing? Can I take one that’ll make me forget Everything I’ve ever seen? Take this one It’ll help you get far away from here Take this one It’ll help you forgive everything that’s happened Take this one It’ll make you sleep for 100 years Take this one It’ll help you run Can I take one that will show me where Her body has gone? Can she take one that’ll make it okay To die alone? Mama Mama Mama Mama Take this pain I don’t want to hold it anymore Take this pain I have more than I should Take this pain It’s taught me all it could Take it Take it If I could take one I could give to her if I see her She can take as many As she needs If she takes one from me It was hers anyway She gave them all to me She gave them all to me
5.
some lyrics are from the American traditional "O Death" lyrics I need I need Two coins For the ferryman Where I’m going I can’t talk Where I’m going I can’t see Where I’m going I can’t walk And nothing is all That can follow me I need 2 coins For the ferryman Eat the flesh From the frame Dirt and worms Have the only claim Leave the body Leave it cold Leave the body Leave it cold Leave the body Leave it I need 2 coins I need 2 coins I need 2 coins For the ferryman
6.
(The Hail Mary prayer) Hail Mary, full of grace Our Lord is with thee Blessed art thou among women And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus Hail Mary, mother of God, Pray for us, Now and at the hour of our death Hail Mary, full of grace Our Lord is with thee Blessed art thou among women And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus Hail Mary, mother of God, Pray for us, Now and at the hour of our death Hail Mary, full of grace Our Lord is with thee Blessed art thou among women And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus Hail Mary, mother of God, Pray for us, Now and at the hour of our death Amen

about

Mystical doom, hag blues, confrontationally pure, Black Moon Lilith in Pisces in the 4th House is a solo electric guitar and voice performance that is as much a cathartic grief purge as it is a droned-out metal colossus that summons the holy spirit. Informed by Korean shamanist ritual and the Korean tradition of P’ansori singing (which demands rehearsal next to waterfalls, in order to ravage the vocal cords), as well as by Keiji Haino, Diamanda Galás, and Jeff Buckley, this performance—termed “intimate metal” by a fan—is a grief ritual for my mother, who was a Pisces.

Statement from Johanna Hedva—

This record is a document of grief at the death of my mother. The journey the record takes you on begins with encountering death, the rage and violence that this summons; to the wash of grief, all the tears and heaving feelings that it brings; to a small, little crying-out in the dark; to, finally, not acceptance, but surrender to the annihilation of it. These stages of the story map to the songs: “O Death” is the angry encounter, a doom song that is violently bare; the washing tears is the song “Wash”; the small cries are the two ballads in the middle, “Family” and “Taking”; and then “2 Coins” and “Mary” at the end are the annihilation.

My voice and the guitar are two voices that are battling each other but also singing in a kind of desperate harmony. They keep trying to find each other in the dark. At times the guitar is ferrying me to the underworld, like the mythological ferryman Charon, and at other times, it is death itself. Both of us are demons, or are we angels. It’s also my mother, maybe. In the end, the body of the guitar is killed. I stand over it, like a preacher, and say the Hail Mary. My mother’s name was Mary. When I perform Black Moon Lilith live, I dress either like a preacher or a gravedigger. In a line, it’s about the labor of death.

Words I want for Black Moon Lilith: terrifying, annihilation, cosmic darkness, the song of whales, the sound of the void, deep time. It should not be easy to listen to, both in concept and affect. It demands attention because it’s an entire world from beginning to end that eats you. It should scare you but feel good, like it’s cleaning you out. It should be a heavy blanket of darkness that is comforting, like how a blanket can be too heavy but also be what you want.

Co-released by crystalline morphologies and Sming Sming.

johannahedva.com
www.smingsming.com
www.crystallinemorphologies.com

credits

released January 1, 2021

All songs written by Johanna Hedva, except the American traditional “O Death”
Guitar and vocals by Johanna Hedva
Mixed by Randall Dunn
Mastered by James Plotkin
“O Death” recorded by Chandler McWilliams, Human Resources Los Angeles
“Wash” recorded and mixed by Pan Daijing and Turi Agostino, Amplify Berlin
“Family” recorded by Hedva, at home in Berlin
“Taking” recorded by Hedva, Amplify Berlin
Violin on “Taking” by Pauline Lay
“2 Coins” and “Mary” recorded by Francesco Donadello, Vox Ton, Berlin
Front photograph of Hedva by Ian Byers-Gambler
Back image by Chandler McWilliams
Thanks to Schorr Guitars for the guitar, and Rerun Electronics for the amp, on “Wash” and “Taking”
Thanks to John Herndon for the amp on "O Death"

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